today........

i luv him no him no him. ugh y cant i just make my mind up. i have a bf named yoseph and im really starting to regret it and hes always oh ur cheating ion me i know it dont lie. and im like yo chill out but he doesnt listen and he raised his hand at me! like about to hit me. so im dumping his ass but then this other kid named brandon, asked me out. i didnt know what to say so im like maby. i want to say yes but there is a guy i really like. his name is eddie. all of my friends think that hes ugly but i think that he is so hot. i just cant take it anymore. i have to many crushes. but eddie would never go for a girl like me. im stupid and ugly. and apperently to my so called friends to happy or like slutty. im sick and tierd of bieng called a slut people say it and im just liike oh ok w.e. but inside im screaming. im gonna change. from now on im not tellin nobody who i like. imma change the way i dress. no more eye liner no more boys. inside ill be who i am. but now i know in this past 8 months of school that i cant be who i really am. people a;ways joke around going like oh ur a slut hahahahah. nicholes is always like oh ur a bitch ur this this and this and im like yo chill. but he keeps goin and goning but i laugh but inside im slowley dying......................