Chapter 2

    So I never thought that I could be loved by anybody in my entire life. I thought that everyone would keep thinking me as a misfit and an outcast. I also was afraid to love because I thought that if I told the person how I felt than I would be rejected. That all changed when I met Larry brodetski, (I think that’s how u spell his name I’m not sure.) but anyway, It began in the beginning of 7^th grade. I met Larry through Yaffa, they are very close friends. I never felt this way about anyone ever before. Then we went out but Larry has a very bad quality about him, he always takes his idiotic friends side. So a week or two after we have been going out his friends told him to dump me because they didn’t like me and he kept saying no but eventually he caved in. he broke up with me by text. I couldn’t believe it I hated him at that time but I the same time I knew that I couldn’t really hate him. I still love him I just can’t bring myself to tell him. I know that he doesn’t like me so I’m always upset about that. I try to focus my mind and my heart on somebody else but it keeps on coming back to him. Every time I see him it’s brutal because I know that we could never be that he would always care more about his friends than he ever will about me. I love him and I can’t stop. The reasons that I’m not well u know dead yet, is because every time that I try to end it he comes up in my head. I can’t be without him. I can’t stand not at least looking at him at least once a day. And every time I cry I picture him in my head as if it’s his fault. Well I don’t know what to do. For now I guess I have to pray and hope……………